Can't believe that I actually had a conversation with Joseph yesterday night !

It didn't go quite well at first, as I kept assuming that someone hacked his account and was playing around with me, so I was (kinda) rude and flatly refused to believe that I was actually chatting with Jo.

Call me paranoid but I thought he was supposed to be training hard for his London Olympics and not exchanging conversations with a cray fan like me.

But when I found out that it's REALLY Jo, I really felt like kicking myself to death.

I've been fantasizing about talking to him for ages, and when it really happens, I just had to screw everything up ugh !

I was insulting him for quite awhile (as I still didn't believe that's Jo at that point of time) and when the reality of me actually talking to a famous Olympic swimmer starts to sink in, I evolved into a babbling fool and my sentences make no sense (you guys should have experienced that before, when talking to your idol/crush). Bet that really spoilt his impression of me GAAAAAAAAAH

I was rather suspicious that Jo actually knew quite a lot about me... But whatever.

Guess I shouldn't take this chance for granted though, I should be counting my lucky stars that he actually replied me. (#^_^#)

Oh and well done for clinching the honorary Sportsman of the Year title !!! It's a really prestigious award, and being able to recieve it at such a young age, it's a really remarkable feat !

(Know you're most-probably-100% not gunna see this, but still)

And a very sweet brthday wish from Joseph, cropped out from my Facebook account. *swoons*



Hey sorry I typed such a boring birthday wish. I was busy studying for exams and stuff. Anyway, I wanted to wish you happy birthday again ( well belated birthday ) and I hope all your dreams come true. Maybe we'll see each other in Singapore one day and I'll definitely give you a hug. Hope you weren't disappointed with my previous message.
♥ Joseph

Hope you hold on to your words Jo, especially those in bold aye hehe. ;) xx

Haiiiiii !

My chinese O Levels are finally over and done with, after much anticipation with all those counting downs, staying back for torturous chinese remedials and such, I really find it hard to believe that it's seriously and actually OVER.

(Who knows, I might be unsatisfied with my grade and request for a retake, but I'll cross the bridge when I come to it, so meanwhile lets PARTAYYYYY~ )

And oh yes, I'm finally Sweet Sixteen !!!

Thanks to all those who wished me Happy Birthday, really appreciated it. :)

Can't believe (once again) that I'm actually one year older.

Pros : 1) Finally able to watch NC16 movies yay !!

2) I'm one year older. People will start expecting me to act maturely, but tough luck cause I'm a 5 year old stuck in a 16 year old body.

Cons : 1) I'm one year older. Boo. I don't wanna grow up so fast.

I think I've changed quite a lot over the past year (well, who doesn't, but I'll elaborate in another blog post.)

My parents haven't got me a birthday gift yet so I need suggestions on what I should request for !

Maybe some endless retail therapy would do me good. Yup.

Everybody has regrets. Who doesn't ?

One of my greatest regrets is that I always tend to hurt those who love me/are close to me.

I guess this serves as a lesson for me not to take those around me for granted, but I seem to keep forgetting the warnings and losing someone important as a result.

When I saw you last week, I then fully realised how much pain and unhappiness I've put you through last year.

Commitments are dedications to someone or something for a long period of time.

I guess I wasn't ready to commit to something else, after seeing how much my last commitment left me emotionally wrecked and in tears.

I was still pretty unstable then, my heart was still recovering (literally) and I was unsure of my feelings.

I shouldn't have accepted. It was extremely selfish on my part, using you as a substitute, a replacement. But pain changes people, and I was stupidly thinking that maybe it's my turn to do some heartbreaking.

I was too insensitive, oftenly talking openly to Jake and the guys, especially Shaun. I knew you would feel jealous, unhappy and left out, but I still did it regardless.

But you must understand, they were comforting me, and every comforting word then was like a breath of fresh air to me, a step nearer to recovery.

I paid special attention to Jake, as he was closest to xx and knew xx well. Talking to Jake was like talking to him, but you mistook my actions for flirting which resulted in many arguements between us.

Now, as I looked back, I think that you were the BEST out of the entire lot, and truly regretted throwing you aside as easily as brushing a fleck of dust off my shoulders.

You really loved me. Accepted my flaws and wholeheartedly loved me for who I really am.

You felt hurt about my actions, but kept quiet about it because you didn't want us to argue.

You smiled whenever you saw me, but deep down in your heart, I know that's where the pain and anger lay.

Regrets. Who doesn't have them ?

Till then xx